Bella Chrusita

he's the one who suddenly can change my mood. maybe sometimes he becomes angry with me, he doesnt talk to me, he ignored me. but i trust to him. i trust that when he said he's afraid if his emotion will break it all. sometimes he becomes quiet without any reason and when he does, i dont really understand why my mood change fastly becomes worst.
Almost everyday we fight, but it really doesnt ever change our love. maybe we tried to let go each other, but we dont know why, we just cant. sometimes his mind and his heart say a different thing. when his mind want to stay away from me, but his heart doesnt.  And so do I.
i do really love him unconditionally. and honestly my worst fear is losing him. he's really important in my eyes. i dont really know what the reason is.
WE ARE NOT LOVER ANYWAY. WE'RE BESTFRIEND. it's because i'm really afraid to lose him. im afraid if someday we'll break up then i lose all of him.
but now, i think everything has changed, we cant avoid the love. if bestfriends fall in love each other, there's no more being called "just friend"
and right now i do really miss him. really miss the way he talked to me 'till the midnight, miss the way he looked to my eyes deeply, miss the way he hug me and everything about him.